Has he really forsaken you?

Jeremiah 32:27 says: "I am the LORD, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me?" I have woken up for the last few weeks if not months wondering that question and then asking God why has he not progressed my deteriorating situation of health and financial stability. I pray, I fast, I weep, I wail, I lay prostrate, I cry, I CRY, I CRY, I moan, I give, I GIVE even more, I sow, I tithe, I offer, I sacrifice and still nothing. Am I bitter, by no means. But does this feeling of God forsaking me sadden me. Every morning! These last few days have been really hard on my mentally and especially physically. I have this ridiculous acute diarrhea that won’t go away with the added bonus of chronic throbbing headaches, muscles tensions and oh yes lack or no funds at all. I submit my press kit to hundreds of speaker bureaus and the response I get is nothing. An empty email box and a phone that never rings. In Psalms 37:25 it says- “I have been young, and now am old; yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken…..” Lately, I have pondered this question, am I righteous, because surely I would not be forsaken as I have been the last few months.

Readers, in all honesty, I am a believer, a radical believer in Jesus Christ that man who laid his life down for all of my infirmities, inequities, disease and was chastised for my peace but this is a blog for those who are in the boat of being sick and tired of being sick and tired. I my friend am one. I have wondered all the above things just for food for thought because I’ve seen the most interesting situations and even more interesting people prosper while my bills go past due or into collections and they walk gracefully around as if doing wrong is so right. How does God bless you with a home and then forgets about you when it comes down to paying the monthly house note? How does God bless you with a mate, but halts your finances in midst of the relationship?

A year ago I would have been a total wreck, acting out of character cursing God, cursing my family, friends and anyone around me because I couldn’t understand the unknown. But now I just simply write these words to minister to myself moreover you if you are able to feel me. To understand me, to fathom the situation I am in currently. How does God release us to do a ministry that is so powerful that is proven to save, deliver and heal millions of lives, and then in one instance stops it all?

And then the scripture Genesis 1:1 comes to mind for me-“In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth.” And my sorrow diminishes a little more, my forsakenness decreases and my faith increases. As I write this blog I am facing a mirror and I look at it while I write you and ponder the same questions and scripture that I initially started this blog off with….. Jeremiah 32:27 says: "I am the LORD, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me?" If God created the heavens and the earth, he surely knew that he created me for such a time as this to write this to break my flesh down and enhance my spirit to just believe, to believe, to BELIEVE, to BELIEVE that the same God who created the heavens and the earth is the same God that promised to never leave me nor forsake me. So my dear friends I leave you with this…..While you have increasing thoughts of what God has not done, and what God isn’t doing, decrease your emotional thoughts and increase your hopes and belief that God is able to do an Ephesians 3:20- Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us.

With God before us who, what bill, what enemy, what pain, what frustration, what worry can be against us.

-Belief is the gas for your own flight

David D. Robertson