Has he really forsaken you?

Jeremiah 32:27 says: "I am the LORD, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me?" I have woken up for the last few weeks if not months wondering that question and then asking God why has he not progressed my deteriorating situation of health and financial stability. I pray, I fast, I weep, I wail, I lay prostrate, I cry, I CRY, I CRY, I moan, I give, I GIVE even more, I sow, I tithe, I offer, I sacrifice and still nothing. Am I bitter, by no means. But does this feeling of God forsaking me sadden me. Every morning! These last few days have been really hard on my mentally and especially physically. I have this ridiculous acute diarrhea that won’t go away with the added bonus of chronic throbbing headaches, muscles tensions and oh yes lack or no funds at all. I submit my press kit to hundreds of speaker bureaus and the response I get is nothing. An empty email box and a phone that never rings. In Psalms 37:25 it says- “I have been young, and now am old; yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken…..” Lately, I have pondered this question, am I righteous, because surely I would not be forsaken as I have been the last few months.

Readers, in all honesty, I am a believer, a radical believer in Jesus Christ that man who laid his life down for all of my infirmities, inequities, disease and was chastised for my peace but this is a blog for those who are in the boat of being sick and tired of being sick and tired. I my friend am one. I have wondered all the above things just for food for thought because I’ve seen the most interesting situations and even more interesting people prosper while my bills go past due or into collections and they walk gracefully around as if doing wrong is so right. How does God bless you with a home and then forgets about you when it comes down to paying the monthly house note? How does God bless you with a mate, but halts your finances in midst of the relationship?

A year ago I would have been a total wreck, acting out of character cursing God, cursing my family, friends and anyone around me because I couldn’t understand the unknown. But now I just simply write these words to minister to myself moreover you if you are able to feel me. To understand me, to fathom the situation I am in currently. How does God release us to do a ministry that is so powerful that is proven to save, deliver and heal millions of lives, and then in one instance stops it all?

And then the scripture Genesis 1:1 comes to mind for me-“In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth.” And my sorrow diminishes a little more, my forsakenness decreases and my faith increases. As I write this blog I am facing a mirror and I look at it while I write you and ponder the same questions and scripture that I initially started this blog off with….. Jeremiah 32:27 says: "I am the LORD, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me?" If God created the heavens and the earth, he surely knew that he created me for such a time as this to write this to break my flesh down and enhance my spirit to just believe, to believe, to BELIEVE, to BELIEVE that the same God who created the heavens and the earth is the same God that promised to never leave me nor forsake me. So my dear friends I leave you with this…..While you have increasing thoughts of what God has not done, and what God isn’t doing, decrease your emotional thoughts and increase your hopes and belief that God is able to do an Ephesians 3:20- Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us.

With God before us who, what bill, what enemy, what pain, what frustration, what worry can be against us.

-Belief is the gas for your own flight

David D. Robertson

Titillating Poesy (Healthy Thoughts for daily pleasures)

Titillating Poesy

(Healthy Thoughts for daily pleasures)

There's something about the brown buttery skin and cocoa butter aroma of a sister that drives me into another state of peace and tranquility. When she embraces me with her sweet serene keenness of independence it drives me up and around the wall of my manhood. The resonation of love to many is defined by sexual intercourse in minority communities. We define the act of it more than we define it by the spiritual connection of greatness meeting greatness. Quite a delicate topic for one to contemplate on nonetheless; in most relationships and experiences we allow conversation to come after sex rather than before sex.

The forecast of intimacy and health has become one of the biggest gauges we've ever seen in the minority community. We love to love but we hate to get tested. Very contradictory indeed! As we start up another amazing and delectable year we begin this issue with a topic that is like the burning fire across the Santa Barbara coast. HIV in the minority community and the target population is African American women.

For so long these women whose hands were rigged with pain, backs ached from tireless hours of work, children always manicured for greatness always seemed to make a way out of no way. But now this way, this epidemic, this infectious disease we call HIV has closed that path of hope temporarily. This backbone of the Black community has been hit by a nuclear disease disabling future doctors, lawyers, teachers and mothers.

Let me titillate your mind and spirit for a moment. So you can see what this epidemic is doing and how YOU can be an effective part of a healthy act of random kindness to one of those buttery brown, cocoa butter smelling sisters around you. Communication! The one thing that turns a frown into a smile. The thing that can save a marriage on the sandiest shore on the isle of nowhere. The thing that has the power of life and death in it. Communication. Let us as a community of people, cohorts with one another communicate to friends, kinfolk, colleagues about the infestation of HIV on a culture of history changers.

March 7, 2009 National Women and Girls HIV/AIDS Awareness Day, and my challenge for each reader is to make a personal health commitment to yourself and your community that you will talk about HIV testing and talk about the infectious disease that is infecting and affecting minority women all over this country we call free. Bill Moyer has been noted to say, "Once you decide to titillate instead of illuminate…..you create a climate of expectation that requires a higher and higher level of intensity." So I leave this with you. The hope which is the expectation of greatness that you will do one of the easiest health initiatives possible for man. Communicate with your sexual partners; communicate with your girlfriends, or home boys. Let's not just talk about things we can't change but let's converse about things we can change. And we as history changers have the ability to change, motivate and make anew of what our tomorrow shall look like.

A healthy thought for a daily pleasure: Communication can lead to a canal of greatness for you, your family and community. Take this as your foretaste into the 2009. Talk, get tested and live!